Challenging Day

Gosshhh

Today is just too challenging day for me and this challenge really make me cry inside..

When I woke up this morning..I heard izz giggling and when i checked on him..he is playing with Buzz Lightyear Iphone...ooo btw, buzz lightyear is mr. hubby, myself is jesse and he is woody of course..penangan toy story..When i talk to his ayah..only then i know that they both haven't sleep since 4am. Izz temperature is unstable..ha had fever on and off since Friday.

it's Monday..It's meeting day and my son is not well. So what would you choose? I have responsibilities towards my job and of course i have bigger responsibility towards my son kan..? So which one will i choose? So I choose to bring my beloved to specialist first then i'll go to the office. Trust me at this point of time..i really hope i am a WAHM..i dont depend on others..i have my own precious time..and I can take care of my son..

I arrived office at 11.40am. lucky the paeds gave me time off ..my husband willingly take care of my son since i will have site visit to project office in the evening..syukur sangat for having such a wonderful husband and loving ayah like him...owh dear..if you read this..i love you soooo much...

When i was on my way to the site visit..hubby called and said izz condition is not stable yet..keep on vomiting..high temp and all..Can you imagine how would i feel at that time..I feel like flying back home there and then.but i just cant..of course I have to make sure the visit is a success..after handover with my colleague..i straight away fly back to Bangi..and we went back to the specialist..twice in a day! for me it's terrible. sumpah memang aku kelam kabut!

at this very moment..my precious is sleeping..his temp is okey and i  hope that he will be fine.no more viral fever..sihat walafiat and happy...sayang..mummy and ayah really loves u.we cried when we see u are in pain..Ya Allah..andai kau mahu menguji hambamu..kau ujilah aku..bukan si kecil yang tak tahu apa salahnya..Ya Allah kau peliharakanlah kesihatan anakku..

Sesungguhnya..hari ini benar benar membuat aku terfikir..sampai bila harus aku bahagikan perhatian aku pada anak dan kerja..berapa banyak masa yang telah aku berikan pada si kecil ini..i need to give him my 100% attention..I need to be WAHM soon..and that's why i have to have a business! Sorry..there's no turning back..the bridge is burned!